On I went, out of the wood, passing the man leading without knowing I was going to do so. Flip-flap, flip-flap, jog-trot, jog-trot, curnchslap-crunchslap, across the middle of a broad field again, rhythmically running in my greyhound effortless fashion, knowing I had won the race though it wasn't half over, won it if I wanted it, could go on for ten or fifteen or twenty miles if I had to and drop dead at the finish of it, which would be the same, in the end, as living an honest life like the governor wanted me to. -Alan Sillitoe, "Loneliness of the Long Distance Runner"

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Pain is normal, right?

I've been keeping something from you.  I saw a doctor yesterday.

Of course, that's not weird at all.  I see my primary care physician usually three times a month and my hematologist about four times a year.  That's a lot of doctor visits.

But this wasn't one of those doctors.  This was a sports medicine specialist.

I'm currently experiencing some shin pain.  It's on the right shin, along the bone on the front of the leg and radiating ever so slightly to the interior of the calf, slightly above mid-calf.  It's more acute than shin splints but less acute than a stress fracture (it's not a stress fracture, right? I've had two, and the pain is not the same).  So far, I'm just doing what we runners do and carrying on, pretending there's no pain.  I'm sure it's nothing.  Right?  It's totally nothing?  I mean, I don't run enough to have a repetitive stress injury, right?

I am actually not freaking out about this.  It started fairly suddenly - no gradual build up, although there was never an "Ow!" moment - around the first week of June.  It gets worse after runs, but (oddly) it didn't after Mount Washington.

The doctor pressed around my leg a bit, told me that my hips are crooked (they are), and put a lift onto my right insole.  I feel very Tom Cruise about it.

I'm being paranoid, and I know it.  But I feel so strong going into marathon training.  Maybe not PR-strong, but fairly close to it.  After my stupid blood clots, I didn't know that I would ever run again - let alone that I would ever contemplate  new, loftier goals.  If I can help it, I will not let leg pain stop me!

1 comment:

  1. Ugh, good luck! I hate when these odd pains show up. I usually do the same, try to ignore it, and by the time I go see a doctor it's too late to actually make a difference...